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Confessions of a Back-Row Exerciser

Confessions of a Back-Row Exerciser

Revelation Wellness February 20, 2019 (20) comments

Imagine a sea of people. The music is playing loudly over the sound system, and the instructor at Revelation Wellness Instructor Retreat is calling out moves. You find yourself in the far back corner because you are afraid of what others will think, or how you look, or the angle that the camera might see you from, so you hide. That was me. I was afraid to be seen, afraid of being too much, or not enough. I was afraid I wasn’t doing it right. I felt like I was ready to pen a memoir entitled, “Confessions of a Back Row Exerciser.”

Suddenly, the instructor shouts, “I need the back row to move up front and everyone else to move back a row!” Panicked, I scrambled to figure out how I could  stay in the back row without anyone noticing, when a friend said, “Come with me!” Next thing I knew, I was in the front row! A few days later I was on stage with an instructor leading a gym full of people in a workout.

Isn’t that the way the Lord moves us? We can be too comfortable where we are, can’t we? He calls us closer. He calls us to be completely vulnerable. We are invited to rely on Him and trust in Him, especially when things get uncomfortable.

God invites us closer and asks us to “work out” every area of our lives alongside Him. By His blood, Jesus tore the veil that kept us from our Father and restored us our relationship with Him so that we could enter freely into God’s presence. We don’t have to look the part, we don’t have to have it all together. In fact, it’s quite the opposite. When we are aware that we don’t have it together, we can enter into greater reliance on Him and intimacy with Him. He longs to reveal Himself to us by proving just how sufficient He is for all of our needs.

I didn’t want to be on stage, but the freedom that God gave me there in those 3 minutes gave me the confidence in that moment to remember who I was and the God I belonged to. Did I have to be on stage to get that freedom? Of course not! But did it strengthen my faith and remind me that God could give me the strength to do something I didn’t think I could do? Absolutely!

In those brief moments, I saw a glimpse of the person God has created me to be. I had been holding back for far too long. To be honest, I didn’t move like the rest of the people on stage, and I wasn’t as coordinated as they were. In fact, I was going left when they were going right. But who really cares? I was moving with the Lord in freedom!

He’s calling us to rise up, friends. When I think of the phrase RISE UP, I can clearly remember someone from the stage grabbing my hand to help me up. In a sense, that’s what God is doing. He is reaching His hand out to help us rise up to trust Him and to obey what He asks of us.

I graduated Instructor Training with Platoon 19, and this Scripture was given to us when we started:

“Rise up and shine, for your light has come. The shining-greatness of the Lord has risen upon you. For see, darkness will cover the earth. Much darkness will cover the people. But the Lord will rise upon you, and His shining-greatness will be seen upon you.” -Isaiah 60:1-3

We have it all wrong when we try to make life about getting ourselves seen and noticed. God wants us to rise up so that He can shine through us and show the world His glory. Let’s step to the side and let the True Light shine through. If He wants you on stage, you can say yes with joy! Maybe He wants to shine through you so that someone else will be encouraged to rise up too. We each have something unique that The Lord can use to help bring other people into a greater understanding of who He is and the freedom that the gospel offers.

I want to leave you with the second verse from the song Happy Dance by Mercy Me:

Hey, yeah you!

In the back of the room with those concrete shoes.

It’s okay to cut loose.

Oh, it ain’t about how you move, but what moves you.

We’re so consumed with what we think we’re supposed to be

that we stop living like we know that we’re free.

There may be some illusion of comfort and safety in the back row, but why would we settle for that? There is so much more freedom with God to be had. Are you willing to rise up and step forward into the freedom He has for you?

Jenn McCann, I am a recovering back row exerciser, I work at my local Christian school as a Teacher’s Assistant and I am very involved in our local Youth for Christ ministry. I am a Revelation Wellness Instructor from Ontario, Canada and I love to see people move in joy and freedom. Read more on my blog

Thank you for joining us this week on the Revelation Wellness Blog! We hope you enjoy this blog series for our February theme, RISE UP! If you live anywhere near Denver, Colorado, we hope you can join us for Rev On the Road on February 22-23! If you can’t join us in person, get your LIVESTREAM tickets today! This is an event you don’t want to miss!

 

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HEATHER GERLACH’S CARDIO DANCE – “INSTEAD”

This class is all cardio and all dance. Get ready to move to the beat and shake yourself free! (ALL LEVELS) (EPHESIANS 2:4-6; NO EQUIPMENT)

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Kim todd February 20, 2019

Amen & Go Jenn!!

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Stephanie Repnyek February 20, 2019

Jenn...thank you so much for sharing this! I will never forget you at retreat and watching God move in you and through you!!

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Gabby W. February 20, 2019

Thanks for sharing, Stephanie! We are thankful you're in the Revelation Wellness community!

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Gabby W. February 20, 2019

Woot woo! Thanks for reading along on the Revelation Wellness blog, Kim!

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Julie February 20, 2019

Jenn, You made me SMILE! From the back row to the concrete shoes and then stepping out and rising up! Amen. Thank you Lord.

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Colleen February 20, 2019

This wasN’t always me but lately i’ve found myself hiding more and more. Sometimes we hide while god is working us thRough somEthing because we think it’s personal and we are afraid to Talk about it. But him working oUt something In us is a great testimony to share with others So that they can be Free to share their issues too. But it takes real women with real faiTh to do that. Im so Glad Revwell is cultivating this in the world. Thank you for the Encouragement. I loge your story :)

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Kelly V February 20, 2019

Thank you for sharing! What aN nspiration as i begin training With Platoon 22. I am so glad God is using You in this ministry.

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Jennifer D February 20, 2019

Way to rise up and call out "freedom!" jenn.

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Gabby W. February 20, 2019

Thanks for reading along on the blog, Jennifer!

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Gabby W. February 20, 2019

We can't wait to meet you at retreat! Thanks for sharing!

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Gabby W. February 20, 2019

We're so glad you're here to join us, Colleen! The Lord is with you!

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Gabby W. February 20, 2019

Thanks for sharing, Julie! We're cheering you on!

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Martine Cadet February 20, 2019

THank you. I am running with this encouragement.

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Gabby W. February 21, 2019

We are thankful you are encouraged, Martine!

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christy mishler February 21, 2019

This is awesome Jenn! I'm so proud of you! God is always up to good!

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Lisa Scott February 21, 2019

LOVE That song by Mercy Me!! Thanks for sharing your heart

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Gabby W. February 21, 2019

Thanks for reading along, Christy! And thanks for leading us in the challenge groups these past two months!

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Gabby W. February 21, 2019

Thanks for reading along on the blog, Lisa! We're glad you are here :)

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Jayme Linville-Begley February 21, 2019

Thanks Jenn! I can relate because I sat in the back trying not to be noticed. I love your freedom!

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Gabby W. March 8, 2019

Thank you for sharing, Jayme! We are cheering you on!

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