It was a Sunday morning. I stood in front of my closet undressed.  My closet was full of clothing.  Much of the clothing did not fit, was well worn, or I had worn it recently.  Nothing was good enough.  I was fat. I was ugly. I had nothing to wear.  Time was ticking, and I was supposed to be getting dressed for church.  I could feel all the emotions stirring– I felt the frustration, the discontent, the ugliness.  Just then, my husband came into the bedroom and sat on the bed. I could feel him looking at me as I stood in front of the closet.  I felt disgusted. I turned to him and in a snarky tone asked, “What are YOU looking at?” As I turned back towards the closet  feeling discontentment, anger, disgust and shame, my husband rose violently. It was one of those moments when you don’t need to see the person to feel the tension in the room and the emotions of their body language. He came behind me. We made eye contact and he said something that sliced right through to my heart.  He said with a tone of anger and supernatural love,  “Is it such a problem that I enjoy looking at my wife? That I find you beautiful?”  From there, he left the bedroom.

I sobbed. I cried in complete surrender and frustration.  Remembering a mentor’s words of advice, “Don’t steal your husband’s blessing when he compliments you,” I sobbed.  In frustration of how much I cared what others thought, I cried.  Heartbroken over  how many other women were standing in front of their closets, feeling all the same feelings, I cried.  Thinking how it shouldn’t matter what I wear to church, I cried.  In understanding how truly blessed I was to have a husband that saw beauty in me, I cried. And I cried.

It was one of those defining moments that will forever be etched into my life’s story–the day God interrupted me in my misery of cursing and shaming my body.  It’s the day that I buried the lie that I’m not good enough, or that I’m fat, or that I hate my body.  I’m here to encourage every man or woman who has ever stood in front of a mirror or a closet full of clothing only seeing disgust. Next time, would you close your eyes for a second  and ask God to open your eyes to what HE sees?  As you open your eyes back up, declare the truth of who you are and whose you are today. I hear the Father whisper, “Daughter, I delight in you.” Write and journal what God speaks over your body.  

In the days, months, and two years since that defining day, God has redeemed not only how I speak over my physical body, He has redeemed the false declaration that “I am fat.”  If you’ve been around Revelation Wellness for any length of time, you have been encouraged to be F.A.T.

Faithful. Available. Teachable.

I am F.A.T.  It brings me joy to be F.A.T.

“Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit.” Psalm 51:12

Friend, even if you don’t have someone telling you are beautiful, or valuable, know that your Father designed you with great joy and you reflect His image like no one else. Focus on being FAITHFUL, AVAILABLE and TEACHABLE. This is where we find freedom and joy in being fully ourselves.

  Michelle Brumgard – Revelation Wellness Instructor, homeschool momma, and writer/speaker at www.michellebrumgard.com.

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