Another slice of trust won’t hurt

Another slice of trust won’t hurt

Revelation Wellness November 28, 2018 (10) comments

I fear the unknown. Don’t we all? With early childhood trauma, and loved ones leaving this earth sooner than I ever thought they would, I grew up fearing death. I feared it so deeply that it some ways it seemed to consume me.

Earlier this year I was diagnosed with severe anemia. I was faced with the big question: Do I trust God? Do I really believe that God is good no matter what? Sitting in a hospital at midnight, all alone, getting a blood transfusion, I was forced to answer that question. My answer at that moment was undoubtedly “no.” However, the Lord used my fear and lack of trust in Him to bring me to my knees over the next few months.

After the blood transfusion, I found out that I had a huge mass that had to be removed. Unfortunately, it was too big to be removed immediately and the doctor wanted to try to shrink it first. The worst part of the diagnosis was that it might take another three to six months to shrink. During that time of waiting, the Lord met me in undeniable ways. In struggling with my fear of death, He promised that He would heal me. I was not defined by the deaths of my mother and father. God was rewriting my story. He also asked me to use that time of waiting to focus on my marriage and kids. No time was to be wasted worrying about what was to come, as my go-to in the past would have been to whip myself into a frenzy of fear.

Over the next few months, any time that my mind began to wander to a dark place of uncertainty, or how this was all going to go, God would whisper to me that He had this and that He was going to heal me.

“The moment we get tired in the waiting,

God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along.

If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter.

He does our praying in and for us,

making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans.

He knows us far better than we know ourselves,

knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God.

That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our

lives of love for God is worked into something good.”

-Romans 8: 26-28, The Message

Fast forward to July.  Another doctor’s appointment and more unexpected news. After all the sweet time I had spent relying on the Lord in my weakness and trusting Him, you can understand how quickly that trust disappeared when I heard the doctor say that the mass had actually grown over the four months of waiting. Surgery was now the only option.

When I say I am afraid of death, you should know that hospitals are the embodiment of death for me.  No one close to me has ever walked away from the hospital without a death sentence. So here’s how it went for me. My first surgery was unsuccessful. The second surgery was unsuccessful and resulted in a third surgery due to complications. Then one week later, I headed to the hospital again to have a fourth surgery! This surgery was for the removal of the mass and was potentially extremely risky. The morning of the last surgery, I felt like the Lord spoke to me the phrase it is finished. I laughed, expecting the worst and figuring anything short of the worst would be good. We were told it was going to be a LONG surgery, about 6 – 8 hours. It actually only took 3 hours. Only God could have made it go so smoothly. Only God.

When I got home that day, I lay in bed and did the only thing I knew I could do, which was to worship the Lord. I put on my favorite worship song by Rita Springer, “Worth It All,” and praised Him for everything that He had walked me through. At that moment, I felt those three words reverberate in my heart: it is finished.

Only it wasn’t finished – not yet.  I developed another complication and was at risk for another surgery. I felt defeated at times, but God was with me and I knew that If He said He was going to do it, He would. I knew that because of my stubbornness, I probably would have pushed my boundaries on recovery.  I knew that through the complication, God helped me slow down and not push myself. I had to let go of all the things I was constantly trying to control: my husband, my kids, my house, and of course, God Himself.

You see, I believed that He was going to heal me, but it wasn’t going to happen the way I wanted it to.  I wanted quick, fast, miraculous healing, but God had other plans. How much was I going to trust Him?

In late September, I was finally released from doctor’s care, 8 weeks after my first surgery. It was a hard, heavy and lonely road, but in the waiting, He met me. I wouldn’t trade it for anything. I had a choice to either trust God and believe what He told me, or I could go back to living in fear and let it destroy me. By His grace, I chose to trust Him. He also made it possible for me to focus on my marriage, which is stronger today because of this whole process, and gave me new eyes for my kids, helping to strengthen my family.

God does what He says He’s going to do, friends. Keep your eyes on Him and trust that He will complete the work that He has started.

Is there a place in your life where it is difficult to trust God? What are some practices you do that align your heart, mind, body, and spirit with God in difficult situations? How has trusting God produced thanksgiving in you?

Dana’s home is in Phoenix, AZ and is the RevWellTV Producer and Customer Care Coordinator for Revelation Wellness®.  She is a wife and mother to three children – Wyatt, Elliott & Gretta. When not working you can find her reading, hiking or playing out front with all the neighborhood kids.


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recent comments


Kim Trimmer November 28, 2018

I needed this today!!! The LORD knew it and told me to stop and read it. Thank You LORD and thank you for sharing your story! Praise the LORD! Get is so so good!!!


AnA November 28, 2018

Thank you for words today they bring confort to my soul knowing no matter what trust God at his worD to heal, Guide, And listen tomour needs . In his timiing all thjngs come together and we are drawn so much closer to Him


Jennifer Rivas November 28, 2018

Wow perfect timing! Thank you Dana! These past 2 weeks there has been a handful of deaths left and right. One of them was a close mentor of mine, and others were Friends’ relatives that passed away. Holy Spirit IMMEDIATELY comforted me, because normally i start to freak out in fear.i had a few what if moments and tiny anxiety (better than in the past). But just even the thoughts of the what if’s for my health or Husband,ect. So come accross at tImes. My enneagram number is a 6, not to excuse my tHOughts, but fear Of Many things has been a huge BATTLEFIELD in My mInd. But praise God By His grace i have been overcoming fear. And This blog is the cherry on top tO how He has been speaking to me. So thank you!!! “I had to let go of all the things I was constantly trying to control: “ this ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️


SHERI SIMPSON November 28, 2018

Dear Dana, Thank you so much for being very honest and genuine about your fears and your struggle to trust God in the midst of ALOT of challenges. I just finished a day in Heir to the crown where I was to ask god to speak and I would listen. I've been struggling so much with praying for healing and instead finding out I have more health issues than I thought and feeling like i'm going backward instead of forward. Your story reminds me that I have the choice to trust or live in fear or to expect god to act according to my ideas. I pray for blessings to be poured out on you and your family as you blessed many by sharing your story. Another reminder of the power of authenticity and our need for community.


Carla Hancock November 28, 2018

Dana, is there a small group of RevelAtion Wellness people for me to get to know in Phoenix az? I live at 24th st & Missouri and have been a member for a year now but could still use some contact face to face time to motivate me to workout and would just enjoy knowing revelation wellness Involved people.


Christine November 28, 2018

Greetings and Blessings, I want to say something about the Flow Yoga video. It is just lovely in so many ways. I have been blessed and gifted by God to be a massage therapist and movement guide. In my studies of Anatomy. My training in various modalities of movement, to include yoga certification...and my practical experiences. I do not have any reason to believe that as adults we are to continue to breathe with a belly expansion as babies do. This was said to be done in the video. Babies do not hat is called paradoxical breathing. Babies close their throat so they can breathe and suckle at the same time. This ability reduces the flow of air and forces attention to the abdominal area. Babies have underdeveloped lungs. God does not keep us breathing like babies. As adults we have well-developed lungs. The diaphragm plunges downward on inhale. The ribs expand multidimensionally and the sternum Pushes outward. If the abdominal muscles are weak they will expand or balloon outward. However, with the downward pressure oF the diaphragm, the actual stomach area only bulges like squeezing a balloon. The abdominal wall if strong or consciously braced need not and should not extend. Extending a weak abdominal will only keep it weak and bulging. Bracing it on inhalation will allow for an internal sit up like contraction and release that will strengthen it from the inside out. The elongated breath stimulated the pelvic floor and importantly the vagus nerve. The vagus nerve sends a message of release to the brain and a sense of relaxation through takes place.


ad_gabby November 28, 2018

Hey Carla, You can find a class near you here: https://www.revelationwellness.org/find-classes/ We are so glad you are here!


ad_gabby December 22, 2018

Hey Christine! Merry Christmas! This is so interesting! Thank you for sharing with us your knowledge about breathing and relaxation. I definitely want to learn more. I love that the Lord "does not keep us breathing like babies." He grows us and develops us in His good design of the body!


David January 2, 2019

This just ripped some tears right out of my eyes. Not only have I been dealing with my own health issues for many months now, but I buried my big brother in may and said my last goodbye to my father 4 days ago. Sometimes it's so hard to even pray, but I know God hears every tear and sometimes that's all I have to offer. Maybe that's all I need to offer right now. Thanks for you post.


ad_gabby January 3, 2019

Thank you for sharing, David! I'm so sorry for the loss of your Father. We are praying for you and your family. The Lord hears you even when you don't know what to pray.

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